World spins madly on

My friend Maren turned me onto this band, she's played a couple of their songs for me, I particularly like this one. I like this kind of music, it's all like, mellow, but with an edge. Perfect for calming you down before you read some of my other posts. :D The Weepies...

Why Do I? A Poem written by me

When my cheeks are rouge
And my belly topsy,
Why do I only get that feeling
When you are around?

When we pass
And our eyes meet,
Why do I look away
When longing tells me to gaze?

When I grasp the table
So as not to collapse in your presence
Why do I make myself out as a fool?
Like a jester to a pompous king

When I converse
But loose my chance in an aquarium full of nerves
How can a heart break on its’ own
Without expecting consequences?

Why does denial snatch my unplanted seed,

When the garden next door has ripened fruits?

Church

I just got back from church, good times. I love learning so much about the gospel. I had a meeting today to decide what our activities are for the next three months. We changed mutual to Wednesdays, because I am their president, and I won't be able to attend Tuesday night meetings for a while. There's an activity in September, I call it, "How to deal with religion in school" Since I've had trouble with this subject and I know other's have also, I just think that we should discuss what's going on, and how to respond to those negative and sometime wrong accusations. I love Church, I'll say it again, I love church. NO matter how many meeting I have to sit through, and how many talks I have to listen to when you can't understand what they're saying because of the accent. I LOVE my religion, and no matter how many "PEERS" try and tell me I'm wrong, I will always love my church. I write this here because I'm too much of a coward to say it to the people who actually pester me about this, and I went a little extreme, but in writing, I AM EXTREME!!! ;={D

Religion

I have friends who have different beliefs than me. I have a Buddhist friend, some Catholic friends, Christian friends, Atheist friends, And my Mormon friends. And I'm OK with people having different beliefs than me, but when I go to class and people who I barely know me, or who I don't even like tease and poke fun of my religion, I feel like I'm going to go mad, and I know from personal experience, that if I go crazy and tell someone off, that they'll just use that against me. "What kind of Mormon Girl are you?" I sometimes feel like leaving school and just going to church to get away and know that I'm right in my beliefs in our god. But of course I can't, and I just have to suck it up, grit my teeth and try and correct people's bogus view of the Mormon church. My Church, and now I'm off for a meeting before church begins.

Dance

So, I went to a church dance last night. And in the past I've totally enjoyed the dances. But this one was terrible. NO one asked me to dance, I felt pathetic standing there in the middle of the slow songs. But no one asked Lexie Worthen to dance wither (I don't know why, She's so pretty) SO we spent half the dance in hiding wondering why we were so repellent. Literally, there were times when Lexie and I decided to move to a different place to see different people, and there was a five foot radius around us where no one would come closer to us. We tried to inch over to other people, and it was like they were rippling away from us!!! Now, if that's not retarded, I don't know what is!!! So, hail to Alex, the all time boy repellent!!

Tuesday night rehearsals

Starting this Tuesday I begin Tuesday night rehearsals for band. Which, in a way is finish. As long as I'm with my friends, but when my friends are places like.. Girls camp, it's not as fun. But as long as they're with me, I enjoy the HOURS spent marching and playing on the field. So This Tuesday I begin, playing at the Bengal Bash 3:30, then rehearsal at six.

BNL, Million Dollars

My 3rd grade teacher used to play this song for us all the time, and I heard it on the tv this morning, and remembered that teacher was my favorite teacher, and all these good memories came flooding back, and I realized how much stuff I would buy with a million dollars. So, enjoy. I did!!!

Camp

So, band camp, once you get past the smell and the work is actually kind of fun. I love being with my friends, they're really amazing, Here's a shout out to them , even though they will probably NEVER read my blog.

Anne- (Might read my blog) She's amazing, she's hilarious, and even though I don't agree all the time with her sense of music, she's a true friend, and she's there for me.

Michelle- I've known Shelly for a couple years, since band in eighth grade, when I played sax next to her. She's awesome, really smart, and she has an awesome sense of humor. "Michelle, Do you wanna see my spit valve?" She knows what I mean.

Aileen- I must admit that when I first met her, I was afraid, that she would eat me or something. But now that I know her better I see that she's really funny and she keeps me in line when I start to get bored during sectionals and marching practice.

Phillip- Phillip is Phillip. He's the head ninja, and because he rejected my request to be a ninja, he made me a spy. If I couldn't be as cool as them, at least I could be a spy, even if they aren't as great. He's a people person that makes everyone laugh, so, a shout out to Phil was in order. Way to go.

Well, I don't have many other FRIENDS at camp, so, there you go. Thanks guys!!!! Oh, and there are a couple cool freshman, namely, Logan, Becca, and Alison (Who's a senior)

MAREN

My friend Maren is at girls camp. I want her to come home, band camp just isn't the same without her, she'll be back on Saturday, but I still miss her like crazy!!!

Stupid People

THIS POST IS GOING TO BE KIND OF DISTURBING, BECAUSE IT'S ALL MY RAGE THROWN OUT INTO WORDS, SO IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GO ON, I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND. I'm A LITTLE SCARED HERE!!! DISCRETION ADVISED!!!


So there's this Stupid guy in band, not mentioning names... Cough Cough, Trevor!! And I just want to... I don't know do something violent that wouldn't be like me. He just UPSETS me, I know he's just upset because my best friend isn't here, but he's taking all his built up pressure out on everyone else, namely me!!! When he's not being a jerk, he's trying to be all sad and mopey and does the whole, "Where's Maren?" with the stupid lip tremble and the hand on my shoulder, I just want to rip off his arm and slap him with it, I know, it's a little extreme, but that's how angry this stupid guy has made me. We're sitting in sectionals and he swears, and anyone who knows me knows that if someone swears in the vicinity around me I ask them to stop. So my exact words were, " Trevor, Can you not swear?" And he told me to stop forcing my religion on him! What is his problem?!!? And we were standing on the stage in the new theatre watching some freshman, and he comes up to me and says, "Alex, I've noticed that every time we stop you're the first one talking." I just wanted to shove his mellaphone down his throat! For all the stupid times he's played the same "King Of The Hill" or "Into The Storm" song during a break. So I just walked away from him, and he was like, 'What's wrong?" He's been acting like this all week!!! He's not even in band! I wish he would just get over himself and leave!! But I know he's staying, "For Maren" No matter how much he says it's about the stupid music!!!

Sorry, Thanks for listening- Reading more like... to my venting, I just can't stand him, and I wish Maren was back from girls camp, because then I could tell this to her in person. But I can't keep my feelings of dislike to myself anymore, it's like burning inside. So Again Thanks, You braved the very worst of my anger, I told all this to Beegs last night, She was proud of me for standing up for myself, I feel proud that I didn't hit him! Ooh, Calm down Alex, you still have two more days. I can handle this when Maren comes back, maybe she'll yell at him? Maybe. Thanks again

-Alex

Band Camp

So, This week is Band Camp. And I truly despise it. noon to Nine PM. It's too hot!!! And I come home sticky, and smelly, and tired. And hungry, and my lips hurt from playing, and also... I'm light headed my feet are aching, and my hair! Ugh don't even get me started on the clump of fur sitting on the top of my head, by the end of the day it looks like I've been dragged upside down over the football Field, and then most of the bits of grass were picked out by blind monkeys. Band Camp stinks, but it's worth it, I guess, to be with my super cool friends!!!!

About video below

Hey, so the video right below... At the end of the trailer is just music I think, and you don't have to listen to that because I didn't even realize it was on there until after I had already published it. SO, Enjoy the video!!!!

Twilight Movie trailer!!! Comes out december 12th

Voices

So, Lately there's been these voices going on in my head. Well, one voice actually, and it won't shut up! Not that that's a bad thing. I kinds like the voice, but sometimes... That voice can tell me things I don't want to hear. Let me rephrase that, because I love the voice. Sometimes the voice is too smart for its own good. And sometimes I learn stuff, and I'm not telling the voice to cut it out or anything. I think that what I'm really trying to do is make fun of this voice. I swear... Well, actually I don't swear, but I'm saying that this voice is in me, and it's just like me, It says stuff that I would say myself. And maybe, sometimes, the voice is a little smart for it's own good. And I think that sometimes the voice tries to confuse me. And- don't get me wrong, the confusion is strange, but accepting - I believe the voice has very loud vocal cords. But it's cool, one of my voices has to speak up!!! : D It's like the voice is my fire or something!!!

Fridge!!

I am OUTRAGED!!!! Last night, someone came to my house.. and stole the refrigerator we were planning on fixing!!! I am SOOO ANGRY, I could spit!!!! SPUTTT!! That was the sound of me spitting on the stupid guy who stole the fridge!!!

Thank you for putting up with my anger!

Alex!!!